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Chapter 9: Simone's Last Letter

The envelope was soft from being handled.

My father had read it many times.

I unfolded the single page, and my wife's handwriting looked up at me. Big, round, loopy. The handwriting of a woman who taught second grade and drew smiley faces on spelling tests.

Dear Harold,

Zuri turned two this week. I'm enclosing a picture of her with her birthday cake. She smashed it with both fists and then tried to feed it to the dog. Ryan didn't think it was funny. I laughed for an hour.

I know you don't write back. That's okay. I'm not writing so you'll write back.

I'm writing because one day Zuri is going to ask about her grandfather. And I want to be able to tell her that we tried. That we kept the door open. That we never once closed it on you, no matter how many times you walked past it.

I know what you think. I know you think she isn't really a Callahan.

But Harold, I've been watching her. She's stubborn. She doesn't quit. When she wants something, she holds on and holds on until her fingers turn white.

Ryan says that's you.

He says when he was a boy, you used to tell him that Callahans don't let go.

So I think she's more of a Callahan than you know.

She just needs her grandfather to find out.

All my love, whether you want it or not,

Simone

I couldn't see the page anymore.

I put it down on my knee and pressed my hand over my eyes.

My father's voice was very quiet.

"Callahans don't let go," he said. "My father used to say it to me on the docks. I said it to you."

I nodded. I couldn't speak.

"When I saw her hanging on that rail," my father said, "with her little hands white. Holding on. Holding on. Not letting go." His voice cracked completely. "I saw your wife's letter. And I knew I'd been wrong for three years. About everything."

He was crying now.

My father.

Harold Callahan, who didn't cry.

"I was a coward, Ryan. I was a proud, stupid, frightened old man. I didn't know how to love a child I hadn't expected. I didn't know how to look at your wife without seeing all the things I'd said. So I stayed away. And then she died, and I couldn't take any of it back."

"Dad—"

"Three months ago, I rewrote my will."

I looked up.

"Half of everything goes to you. The other half goes into a trust for Zuri. Callahan Marine. The house in Key West. All of it. My granddaughter. My heir. Equal to anyone."

My mouth went dry.

"Who knew?"

"My lawyer," my father said. "And Celeste."

"Celeste knew?"

"I told her two weeks before the trip." He closed his eyes. "Before that, the trust was split between you and Tyler. Tyler's share went from fifty percent to twenty-five. Celeste was very upset. She said I was being sentimental. She said—"

He stopped.

"What did she say, Dad?"

He opened his eyes, and they were full of something I had never seen in my father before.

Shame.

"She said, 'That child isn't even your blood. If something happened to her, nobody would blame anyone.'"

The monitor beside his bed beeped faster.

"I thought she was being cruel," he whispered. "I didn't think she meant it."

"And then you invited us on the boat."

"I wanted to meet her," my father said. "I wanted to see if Simone was right. I wanted to look at that little girl and see if she was a Callahan."

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He turned his head away.

"I brought her to the one place in the world where my wife could reach her."

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